Journal Entry: Mon Jan 14, 2013, 2:14 PM
well 2012 has come and gone!
It was a boring year indeed for me anyway.
So as most of you know I did get engaged in 2012 in late november/early december (without looking at my diary i cant tell you a date ><) and it has pushed me to be a better person. I need to loose weight and look after myself more. The whole point of marriage other then the loving union part is that you get to spend key time together and so longer i live the better right?
I watched Up the other night and I undersood it better now then I did the first time I saw it.
On the day of my engagement I had a long lovely chat with an elderly man who had just lost his wife and it was actually a wake up call for me. He had adored his wife and she was the love of his life, his friends thought she was wonderful and I could tell he often felt the luckiest man in the world to have this woman in his life, they grew old together and shared many lovely moments and had lots of kids. Her health took an unexpected turn to the worst and I honestly don't think the gentlemen saw it coming. The day she died she was wearing a night gown bought for her by him and his last words to her were "you look so beautiful today" and as he kissed her she passed away. As he told me the story it took ALL my might not to start crying myself because the love and care this man had had for this lady was quite frankly movie worthy and when the call ended I couldn't help but think that if I had even a tenth of the amount of love between me and jay as they had then I would be a very lucky woman because they had true, forgiving, strong,trustworthy, unbreakable love. He called back about 20 minutes later to tell me one last story about his wife, I think he was lonely and for obvouse reasons didn't want to bother his family with his own sorrow when they had lost her too but I was glad he felt he could call back and that he shared those lovely stories with me.
I was also left with a sense of need to make sure that Jay knew that I loved him dearly and like the elderly man and his wife I had chatted with that day, I wanted to grow old with him and share a fun, love filled history. When jay proposed that night I kind of wanted to call the man back to let him know my good news and to tell him thank you for sharing his stories with me. I never did,I'm not sure I'm allowed tbh but that phone call made a difference to me too.
When Jay asked me to marry him I thought of the old man and how lucky I was to be at the start of my journey with Jay and how much I wanted to grow old with Jay, the old man had instilled a bit of a true romantic in me and in a good sense I think.
He had thanked me profusily for the help and patience I had showed him that day but in all honesty it was a pleasure and I wish all the calls I took effected me that way as I'm sure everyone would want my job if they dealt with people like him all the time. It was lovely and inspirational.
I hope he had a good Christmas just as I hope you all had a good Christmas too.
Love is very rarely like the movies but when it is, it brings a little bit of magic into an otherwise flat plot.
Listening to: radio
Watching: New Girl, top chef, big bang theory
Playing: PS3 SSX, little big planet go karting
Drinking: water, cherry blossom tea